A Tough Lesson...

"If at first you don't succeed try, try again" is the famous saying I remember my mom always telling me while growing up. When I was younger I may not have fully understood why it was important to believe in that saying, but now that I'm older and have experienced more I can now see why. After these past couple days it feels like I have had a crash course in how to overcome a situation after you don't achieve your goal.

At my job there was an opportunity that came for a higher position that I was really interested in getting. I remember going to my supervisor, back in July, in regards to this position asking her what I could start working on to better prepare me for it. I was told the only thing that could hold me back from getting the position would be my approach. So, for the last 8 months I have been continually working on that aspect and really focusing on striving to have a more positive approach. After months of putting, what I felt, my heart and soul into doing anything I could to get this position the time finally came for my interview. My interview was this last Monday, and I have to say I felt pretty good about it. Yesterday was when we were supposed to hear back on whether or not we got the position, and it felt like the longest day of my life. After watching a couple people be called down throughout the day and not knowing whether or not they got it my time finally came. I went down, my supervisor and I went over some things and then I heard it..."we decided to go with someone else." When I heard these words I literally felt like I had failed. I remember feeling that all that hard work I had done prior was all for nothing. I mean not getting something that I was so passionate for crushed me.

After talking to Dallas, and a "couple" tears later, the light at the end of the tunnel is getting brighter. This whole experience has made me realize that I ask way too much of myself, and that sometimes being a perfectionist isn't always a good quality. It is this experience that has made me understand that this is my opportunity to show everyone that I can make a negative situation in to a positive and that I can only grow from it. I'll be taking this little obstacle and use it as my motivation for my own self growth.

**Thank you to my wonderful, amazing husband for helping me see past this trial. I LOVE you so much!!**